neverlastingdream //

I just had a really long and interesting conversation with Jason. Man, it feels good to talk after a long day.. *sigh*

I have another hint for the password-protected hint. It looks a lot like a McLabeling. I didn’t even realize it until Jason mentioned it haha. (I know two Jason R.’s. One is a really good friend of mine, and another is just someone who really doesn’t like me. The latter’s quite a jerk.. Grr..)

I finished my first Chemistry lab today. However, my TA did a portion of my lab for me to save time…. OMG! I’m helpless T_____T;;. I’m gonna read the lab manual in sections next time, so when I read it for the first time I don’t just focus at the beginning and toss it aside at the end. That’s what happened this time. T______T;;.

I wonder how AMC did on her Physiology midterm.

I really love Tashika na Koto.

In this bitter and lonely life, I still have things I am truly thankful for. Every weekly phone conversation, every threat to swear at me, and every threads of sarcasm.. It is so painful to think of those things. (Okay, fine, I’m emo. Happy?) But, I love you, and you should never forget that. And if, in the future I disappoint you again, in my heart I am crying because I don’t know what I did to have your attention and care.

In this bitter and overcast sky, I can’t do anything for you from far away.

And even if I’m right beside you, I am powerless to help you. I keep on telling you to go to the doctor to get it checked up and I’m just really worried that something’s really really wrong and I don’t want you to die. You say you are going to die, but think about the people who will miss you. Everyone you know will miss you. You never know the impact you make on other people until you realize just how much they’ll miss you once you’re gone. I’m one of those people and so many other people would care. Don’t ignore it, don’t be scared. “Living life in fear is a bad thing.” (I’m not really sure what he said, but it was something along those lines.) I’ll be with you if you’ll allow me, just like I was there 3 years ago.

You said, “Lily, let’s promise each other to not skip classes anymore.” I said, “I’ll promise if you go see a doctor.” And you gave up on it.

I want to translate the lyrics for the song “Tashika na Koto”, because the lyrics are just beautiful. It is just pure euphoria and inspiration.

I hope Pei is okay. *sigh*

This has been a very emo post.

In other very off-topic news. Today is Marina’s birthday! LOL>> That post was quite funny.

I went to choir practice today, and we sang this new song called Lux Aeterna. The lyrics were all in Latin and all we did was sing the whole song in ‘Loo’s. It was still very fun though, because the song was written beautifully. I can’t think of anything off the top of my head that can match its beautiful and its languidness. I will somehow get next week’s rehearsal uploaded onto the net.. =).

Feeling better now,
Lily .