neverlastingdream //

study = no fail (1)
no study = fail (2)
(1)+(2)
study + no study = fail + no fail
study (no + 1) = fail (no + 1)
study = fail.

I’m at Jack’s for lunch. He’s making corn lol.

I didn’t skip classes today, though was 10 minutes late for the first one though.

Class at 3:30, work at 6… *sigh*

I hope you guys are having good days <3.

Love,
Lily.

What’s with this date???

GARNET CROW - Sekai wa Mawaru to Iu Keredo
Hey!Say!JUMP - Ultra Music Power
Touhoushinki - Forever Love

O____O;;. What a day full of anticipation.

I just had a really long and interesting conversation with Jason. Man, it feels good to talk after a long day.. *sigh*

I have another hint for the password-protected hint. It looks a lot like a McLabeling. I didn’t even realize it until Jason mentioned it haha. (I know two Jason R.’s. One is a really good friend of mine, and another is just someone who really doesn’t like me. The latter’s quite a jerk.. Grr..)

I finished my first Chemistry lab today. However, my TA did a portion of my lab for me to save time…. OMG! I’m helpless T_____T;;. I’m gonna read the lab manual in sections next time, so when I read it for the first time I don’t just focus at the beginning and toss it aside at the end. That’s what happened this time. T______T;;.

I wonder how AMC did on her Physiology midterm.

I really love Tashika na Koto.

In this bitter and lonely life, I still have things I am truly thankful for. Every weekly phone conversation, every threat to swear at me, and every threads of sarcasm.. It is so painful to think of those things. (Okay, fine, I’m emo. Happy?) But, I love you, and you should never forget that. And if, in the future I disappoint you again, in my heart I am crying because I don’t know what I did to have your attention and care.

In this bitter and overcast sky, I can’t do anything for you from far away.

And even if I’m right beside you, I am powerless to help you. I keep on telling you to go to the doctor to get it checked up and I’m just really worried that something’s really really wrong and I don’t want you to die. You say you are going to die, but think about the people who will miss you. Everyone you know will miss you. You never know the impact you make on other people until you realize just how much they’ll miss you once you’re gone. I’m one of those people and so many other people would care. Don’t ignore it, don’t be scared. “Living life in fear is a bad thing.” (I’m not really sure what he said, but it was something along those lines.) I’ll be with you if you’ll allow me, just like I was there 3 years ago.

You said, “Lily, let’s promise each other to not skip classes anymore.” I said, “I’ll promise if you go see a doctor.” And you gave up on it.

I want to translate the lyrics for the song “Tashika na Koto”, because the lyrics are just beautiful. It is just pure euphoria and inspiration.

I hope Pei is okay. *sigh*

This has been a very emo post.

In other very off-topic news. Today is Marina’s birthday! LOL>> That post was quite funny.

I went to choir practice today, and we sang this new song called Lux Aeterna. The lyrics were all in Latin and all we did was sing the whole song in ‘Loo’s. It was still very fun though, because the song was written beautifully. I can’t think of anything off the top of my head that can match its beautiful and its languidness. I will somehow get next week’s rehearsal uploaded onto the net.. =).

Feeling better now,
Lily .

I’ve been skipping classes a lot. Even the ones that counts for marks. I’m a really terrible student.

Now before anyone starts scolding me, I know that it’s a bad thing to skip classes. I try to tell myself that I need need need to get to class, but I buckle and just don’t go anywhere. I have hardly any self-control anymore.

I hate not being content with myself. This is just so stupid, and I almost wanna password protect this because I’m really ashamed of myself.

AHHHH! Life is confusing… T____T;;.

On a brighter note, someone stumbled upon my translation for the lyrics of Kokoro by Oda Kazumasa and wants to upload it to her Italian drama fansite. I’m thinking of letting her, but I think I’ll go consult Fukui-sensei about the accuracy of the translation, because I had some big problems with some of the lines.

Feeling so busy that you don’t have time or the mind to update your blog. I feel bad and very pressured.

- Vacuumed room and living room.
- Showered.
- Went shopping for milk and bread. Also bought Fuzzy Peaches and some cashews. Total $16-17. Not exactly cheap. I shuddered at the receipt. (Saw a guy with a Battle Royale shirt at A&P. He was Caucasian, mid- to late- 40’s. Very interesting. He would know what his T-shirt is about right? Hehe.)
- Made breakfast food, ate and washed dishes.
- Started laundry.

It really is. This past week, it’s been nothing except work, school and midterms. I had my Chemistry midterm tonight, so I’m gonna have a one-day weekend tomorrow. Yay.

I have to read my chemistry lab, and hope to God that I’ll finish this one. I need to start and finish my Physics 208 assignment which is due on Tuesday. I also need to start on my Physics 259 lab, which is a formal lab report. The professor and the TAs were kind enough to extend the due date to Tuesday after the Tuesday coming-up, but it sucks because we have a lab this coming week for 259 too, so there will be two labs due next next Tuesday. School’s wonderful isn’t it?

I really want to sleep, but I feel so unsatisfied!!! T_____T;;.

Marina’s really good at the things she does.

I watched the first episode of Tantei Gakuen Q with Jeff. I told him the name is ‘Detective Academy Q’ and that the main character’s name is Kyuu. He said, “So it’s not L?”

LOL. People can be very interesting sometimes.

Before I checked up the lyrics of Answer by FLOW, I thought that line was, “For Gassan.. Hey, pea brain!” Or, “For Gassan… Ne, be brave!”

Neither made much sense, though admittedly the real thing doesn’t either.

Gassan was Tsukiyama Kayo’s nickname given by Tanaka Ichiro from HIMITSU no Hanazono.. xDD;;.