Lily, stay away from Arashi.
They suck your time away, you have better things to do…
alshfa; oshy; oauh s;oguahdshfglah;org;ouahd;sf oh what the heck..
Arashi will release a new album by the name of Dream-A-live, reflecting on the name of the 5-dome tour this summer. The album went on pre-order on websites like yesasia.com and cdjapan.co.jp on the 13th of March, and the Limited Edition has already been sold out. I don’t actually know when it went out of print, but it must’ve been only yesterday or the day before that. T____T;;. I somehow feel that I’m the only one who hasn’t spent any money on them, and I feel really bad… Emily has the 2008 calendar, and Vanessa went to Vegas to see Jun (and Mao, andNatsuki) filming the final HanaDan movie…
About the movie filming, the cast and crew went to Hong Kong for shooting beginning mid-February. There are a bunch of reports on spotting Jun with Mao in Vegas. To read one, please go to Vanessa’s report. Anyway, the fans at Hong Kong treated Jun and Shun very badly, following them around everywhere which clearly pissed off Jun… ><;; But the fans in Vegas were a lot better behaved; many thought that if Jun had a good impression of the States, Arashi would have more of a chance of coming here for a concert or having a world tour.. But you know, that’s weird, there wasn’t much a fuss when Nino came for the shooting for Letters from Iwo Jima. But then again, I wasn’t much of a fan then. Anyway, Jun is more popular but still…a;sljfa;sljdflajslafjlsdjf *get frustrated* Nino deserves it too.!
Next year is Arashi’s 10th anniversary. And many people on arashian.com are talking about going to Japan to see them in concert, even with T-shirt designs! Arashi’s 10th anniversary’s something I’ve been looking forward to ever since I saw Aiba’s letter in 24 hr TV. They get an extra few minutes for celebration on the Johnny’s New Year Live Countdown, something I’m really excited to see =). It would be AWESOME if I could go too, and meet everyone and then see Arashi live in concert… But I don’t really know how likely that is for me. I know for sure, if I see Blue performed live, I’m going to cry because it’s one of the most wonderful Arashi songs I’ve ever heard…
Emily’s package with the Hey! Say! JUMP poster got sent back to her, so now I have to wait for another month until I get it, but I promised pictures when I got it, so wait patiently <3.
This weekend was really really horrible.
I had a fight with my dad and ended up hiding underneath my bed so they couldn’t find me anymore. Seriously, the things I do for my parents sometimes. I didn’t want them to worry, so I got out after five minutes. I think the time spent underneath my bed was painful, physically and emotionally, trying not to make myself get hurt at the same time not to make anyone notice I was under there. *tear*
My parents never listen to what I want. It’s always been, “Lily, do this. Do that..!” My mom’s finally considering and letting me pursue Graphic Design.. My dad, however, is a totally different story. But I’m trying to make decisions, should I really do it?
The average salary is around $35,000 to $60,000, I think I’ll have to assume USD for this. I asked my mom about how much money she and my dad made a year, and both were at the upper ends of that range… *sigh* But it’s like once-in-a-lifetime chance for me. They’re never supported me in anything I liked doing before………..
But then there’s another problem. Graphic design isn’t the greatest career on Earth. It doesn’t pay the greatest, and it isn’t a very stable. And there’s always the factor that will I be good at it. I know I have some experience, but compared to people who have had encouragement about academic pursues, I do not have the ample experience and confidence regarding this issue. And I’m not sure if $35,000 to $60,000 is enough for one person. It probably is right? If it isn’t, I doubt it would be a profession… Oh I don’t know. I’m so confused.
I started talking to Emily about this, why she decided she wanted to do it for a major and what her parents thought. Some people have it easy, their parents are very open and relaxed. But omg. GR. She said she’s confused too, that she’s not exactly sure what to do either. But really, will I even get in? I don’t have many artistic experience. All I know is the software stuff… !! GR. I’m really horrible sometimes..
And.. There’s also another problem. If I do Graphic Design, I’ll probably transfer to Wayne State and stay there until I complete the Bachelor in Fine Arts.. And Chen brought this up because we were talking today, she said that if I left, our friendship will be extremely strained. It didn’t occur to me at all… ><;; I was concentrating too much on what I’m gonna do before I considered the people closest to me. I’m quite selfish sometimes. Anyway, I know from experience that I’m bad a maintaining long-distance friendships, that I’ll eventually forget them… And I’m trying my best to hold onto the ones now even though I’m failing horribly…
Really, I have the worst personality. I get discouraged easily, I give up too easily, and I care about what other people think too much. And I’m constantly afraid of myself and what I am capable of. I have confidence issues, and this doesn’t help at all.
I saw some lives for the song Blue by Arashi, and I think I like it better than Tabitachi no Asa. Dunno ><:;
Recorded Carry on for reki-kun yesterday, but didn’t turn out that well, will try again this week.
The translations for Carry on is very good, it’s a good song in general.
In other news, regarding GARNET CROW’s new album LOCKS, it’s not as great as I would’ve hoped, and comparing this one to THE TWILIGHT VALLEY, THE TWILIGHT VALLEY was actually better.. ><;; Not because I didn’t like it, it’s just some of the songs didn’t really click, and I feel that they’re losing the style of “neo-acoustic” feel to them that is clearly defined in songs like Maboroshi, in little time and sky ~new arrange version~… The album versions of Namida no Yesterday and Kono te wo nobaseba was both very good, different, but not so much like the difference between the original version of Sky and the new arranged version. I think my favourite song would have to be Sekai wa Mawaru to Iu Keredo, the ballad single since errrrrr let me think.. Wasurezaki… Like 3 years ago, before all the MAR stuff happened ><;;. Oh the MAR singles, GR. They’re not bad songs, but they weren’t great. GARNET is capable of very poetic, elegant and nostalgic music, and I feel that they’re losing the special style that I usually associated them with. I’ll have to see their next single. Hopefully it’ll be another ending/opening for Detective Conan, that way they have more freedom…
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Tuesday night, going out with Anne to see 27 Dresses, Wednesday night, choir rehearsal… *sigh* and I have to make banners for CAS.. I’m thinking of doing one on Photoshop, so I won’t have to deal with all the paint and stuff… GR. I hope Ben will pay for the printing… O_o;;. Maybe I’m just too methodical and meticulous.
Anyway, a bunch of things are happening in my life, and I’m at a crossroad… !!! And the choices are daunting and it’s scary to think that I have to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life in the next six months.
I seem to hear, “But you’re only 19 years old.” a lot these days. That I have time to try different professions if I wanted to. But I don’t know, many people my age already have a career ahead of them… It’s just me being insecure about it.
T__________T;;
Life sucks.
I began to talk about Formula One with Sanae through Private Messages on arashian.com LOL> and I didn’t know MacLaren got disqualified from the constructor’s competition, so I emailed Phil about that.. ><;; Dunno if that was a good move or not.
I think I am very over-protective. I am attracted by people’s loneliness. I think I fall in love that way. So it’s easy for me to fall like that… >><<;; I told someone that I fell in love with them when they first cried on my shoulder/lap.. I guess it feels good to be needed and to feel needed.
Oh, I found a bunch of Orgel Collections, most of them are music box collections, not pianos, I’m thinking of uploading them onto DivShare so readers can stream them. I’m sure you’ll like at least one or two of them, they really are very nice <3.
Okay, I think I’m done for now.
Over and out.
PS. Arashi’s performance of Blue from Arashi Around Asia..
God, I want their new album..!! I should get a job.
March 17th, 2008 at 2:48 pm
if g.d is your thing, go for it. because think about it, what can you do with a major in med physics (or any life sci program) anyway besides research? and research probably pay the same approximate amount anyway. you can live on 60000 a year for sure. just not very lavishly
but remember, doing something because you like it doesn’t mean doing something for a living sometimes. it is very possible for you freelance g.d. while pursuing a entirely different career. think about all the amateur athletes, or the musicians who are engineers/doctors/random ppl by day, and musicians by weekends =D
on an entirely unrelated note: I’m so screwed for orgo
March 17th, 2008 at 10:27 pm
Seems like Yin already said everything I wanted to say. More money = more chances to go see Arashi…
Maybe people didn’t know where Nino would be filming? How did people discover the filming locations anyway? That seemed like so much fun…
March 19th, 2008 at 6:21 am
I am only sixteen, but heck I have decided what I wanted to do. Even if I can’t earn much, at least…One life. We only live once. Can you imagine on your deathbed, all you ever did think about when your life flashes back : “I wished that I have done that instead.”
I want to listen to Carry On *completely random note*! When you do finish recording it, do tell me.
I am not going for their 10th year anniversary con next year as well. Although I am very disappointed by that, but I won’t be going - studies will have to come first. And if you ever fall for somebody because they are lonely…
Then I can only hope you won’t fall too deep.
PS : Arashi’s wearing fugly tablecloths as shirts! MOARRR RACE /roars *shoots their costume designer*
Good luck and stay safe.
PS : Are you living in the States?